tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1885089363049042508.post1289387358697949722..comments2023-10-25T10:53:39.881-04:00Comments on Odin's Daughter: What's in the pastLeighhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01264241978515946396noreply@blogger.comBlogger2125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1885089363049042508.post-45990150686677756792009-04-21T07:54:00.000-04:002009-04-21T07:54:00.000-04:00Mine loved the guilt trip, "why do you do that, wh...Mine loved the guilt trip, "why do you do that, why do you make me do that?" and so on. I still feel guilty if I do something I like, it's that ingrained that I have to do what he wants.<br />I have no idea what normal is for a relationship. After back to back manipulative/abusive relationships? I really don't care to try my hand at a third. Heh.Leighhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/01264241978515946396noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1885089363049042508.post-18662288934157845332009-04-20T16:57:00.000-04:002009-04-20T16:57:00.000-04:00Yeah, I hated the "if you're not getting hit, it's...Yeah, I hated the "if you're not getting hit, it's not abuse" line. <br /><br />I lost jobs because boy wouldn't stop calling, every 20 minutes, to make sure I wasn't fucking every guy at work. I lost jobs because if I wasn't focused on him, at all times, I didn't love him. I wasn't allowed to watch a TV show I liked, because that meant my attention wasn't solely on him.<br /><br />He would get mad, about something, it was always something, and there went half the stuff I owned. Work clothes? Torn to shreds, sorry I can't go to work today. Books, burned. TVs punched in. Computers doused in water.<br /><br />If I bought food that I liked, he ate it. Even if he was allergic to it, just so I couldn't enjoy it.<br /><br />It took me a while to figure out what qualifies as "normal", and I'm not really positive I'm there yet.PersonalFailurehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03034292023591747601noreply@blogger.com